Abyssal Solitude

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I love you.

I am exhausted by this infliction
tired of being your absent deity.
missing, again. comatose as always.
I am regarded from you as that one
you cannot reach
but yearn to grasp
to hold
to touch
to feel, heart beating,
lungs breathing
pulse drumming again in your ears,
under your palms
beneath your fingers.

you pray to me with whispers
under the faded depths of your heavy mind
words spoken,
and unspoken, unheard and relentless on the walls of your reality
trying desperately to break through,
clawing again at the unseen barriers holding us apart
keeping me distant.

i am tired of this pedestal
held up above the crimson waves
and the webbed scars
and these knife wounds through my hands, white with age
and still rough to the touch,
abrasive to the one who made them
though, somehow,
not to me.

I wish I could close the distance, still
through the space we’ve made and the years between,
still, although you’ve kept me close by trying to push me away
subconsciously, most likely.

i know you havent forgotten,
that fire beats in these veins, you know
your fire
still burning, however many times you yourself
have threatened to put it out.
still burning, though in all reason it should have run out of fodder
when surrounded by the cold, relentless ocean
in which you so defiantly planted that seed
for flame.


I long for this era of smoke to end,
so I could see you again.

and I know,
so do you.

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“pray to me,

your lucky star

your singing satellite.”

-satellite, oceanlab

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